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I am afraid..


A couple of months ago my sisters booked tickets to go see an event at the O2 arena, a popular event which many of you in the UK will know as the Jingle Bell Ball. An annual Christmas concert for music lovers. At the time we were very excited when we received tickets and we were looking forward to what would be (we presumed) a joyous and entertaining evening. However in light of the recent terrorist attacks, I was becoming more unsure of actually attending the event.

For the first time in my life I felt this fear that almost consumed me. I didn’t let it show, nor did I speak about it but inside my mind all I could think about was whether or not I would be safe going to the concert. There were moments when I was tempted to just cancel the whole evening. As it turns out, we did end up going and the experience has taught me a lot about fear itself.

The second we arrived at the O2, I had this deep sense of paranoia that was really quite suffocating. I kept thinking of the Paris attacks and the most recent attack at Leytonstone train station in East London. My mind automatically thought the worst, yet there was nothing in my line of vision to even provoke that sense of fear.

As we walked towards the arena entrance I saw an officer with a guard dog, standing and casually looking over the crowd. His seemingly calm demeanour didn’t hide the stark reality of why exactly he was standing guard over this crowd of strangers.

Our first steps into the arena were halted by employees and officers who scanned us and checked our belongings before letting us through into the dome. Although the security went a long way to reassure me that I would be okay, a part of me was saddened by just how much life has changed. The constant reminder of our lives being in danger is always around us and what hurts most is that no matter how much we say we won’t let fear ruin us or how we’ll go to a certain event to defy terrorists, deep down we’re all subjected to this claustrophobic atmosphere every time we’re reminded of what has happened.

We’re all human. Fear is an emotion that is hard to control, just as any other emotion we might feel. It’s brave to say that we will fight it and carry on as normal but are we really ever normal again? Becoming paranoid at a loud bang or a suspicious package is something almost everyone has probably now been a witness to. Being afraid does not mean I am weak, it does not mean I am a coward or that I will let terrorists win.

It means I’m human. I have the ability to feel and be humane because I’m afraid for myself and others. That’s an emotion we can’t force ourselves to ignore and it’s an emotion that we shouldn’t be ashamed of.

I sang and danced at the Jingle Bell Ball whilst also permanently memorising the closest exits to me and where I would need to run should anything happen. Just because I’m living life doesn’t mean I’ll forget, even for a moment, that my life can change within a second. Keeping calm and carrying on is a good motto in itself but so is learning to deal with your emotions. We can’t control emotions as much as we’d like to, so don’t hide them. Don’t be afraid of fear, instead accept it and accept that it will be a part of you.

This whole experience taught me that fear doesn’t have to be a weakness, it can be a strength. For one, I’ve become more vigilant and if you want to call that paranoia then you can. I’d rather be paranoid than sorry.

The point of this post wasn’t to demoralise any of you but for you to understand that at the end of the day it’s okay to be afraid and that we are better off sharing our vulnerabilities rather than hiding them away where they constantly eat at us. We are sadly living in a time where we have to live amongst monsters who wish to destroy the peace within humanity. They are monsters, who are incapable of feelings and emotions. But we are not, and that’s what makes us different. Our bravery, courage, strength and yes our fear makes us human and as humans we should use our emotions to make this world a better place. I’m not ashamed to say I’m afraid because I know, for me, being scared does not mean that I am not strong and I know that I will never give up without a fight.

Be afraid, be scared, accept fear as a part of yourself because it is fear that will give you the courage, strength and bravery you need to fight against monsters. What makes us different is our ability to feel. Emotions are a powerful part of our body and mind and with that we can create a world where we can eliminate the evil that is incapable of any feeling.

BLOG TOUR: The Broken Hearts Book Club by Lynsey James..

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Today my blog hosts a review stop for the wonderful new novel by Lynsey James, The Broken Hearts Book Club. Before kick-starting the review, let’s find out more about our author and her latest novel.


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 Author Bio:

Lynsey James was born in Fife in 1991 and has been telling people how to spell her name ever since. She’s an incurable bookworm who loves nothing more than getting lost in a good story with memorable characters. She started writing when she was really young and credits her lovely Grandad- and possibly a bump on the head from a Mr Frosty machine- with her love of telling stories. She used to write her own episodes of Friends and act them out in front of her family (in fact she’s sure she put Ross and Rachel together first!)

A careers adviser at school once told Lynsey writing wasn’t a “good option” and for a few years, she believed her. She tried a little bit of everything, including make-up artistry, teaching and doing admin for a chocolate fountain company. The free chocolate was brilliant. When Lynsey left her job a couple of years ago, she started writing full-time while she looked for another one. As soon as she started working on her story, Lynsey fell in love and decided to finally pursue her dream. She haven’t looked back since.

When Lynsey’s not writing, eating cake or drinking tea, she’s daydreaming about the day Dylan O’Brien FINALLY realises they’re meant to be together. It’ll happen one day…

More information on Lynsey and her novels can be found in the following places:

Official WebsiteTwitterFacebookAmazon UKAmazon USGoodreads


Blurb:

Secrets never stay buried for long…

Lucy Harper has always been good at one thing: running from her past. But when her beloved Nana Lily passes away she has no choice except to return to the one place in the world she most wants to avoid…

Luna Bay hasn’t changed much in the eight years she has spent in London. The little Yorkshire village is still just as beautiful, but the new pub landlord is a gorgeous addition to the scenery!

Lucy only intended to stay for a day, yet when she discovers that Nana Lily has not only left her a cottage but also ‘The Broken Hearts Book Club’, Lucy is intrigued. Her Nana never have mentioned the club and Lucy can’t wait to get started, but walking into her first meeting she is more aware than ever that her past is finally catching up with her.

One way or another, Lucy must finally face the secrets she’s kept buried for so long – or spend the rest of her life on the run…

Review:

I usually don’t let book covers form my opinion on a book but from the very beginning I was hooked by this gorgeous cover and I knew instantly that I had to absolutely have a read of this book. I’m so glad I did because I thoroughly enjoyed Lynsey’s novel.

This is my second James novel and  I was delighted by the way in which Lynsey created a warm and wonderful world that allowed me to escape for a few hours.

The plot of the novel revolves around our protagonist, Lucy Harper, who is returning home to Luna Bay, after a very long time to fulfill her late grandmother’s wishes. Lucy has been running from her past her whole life but when she arrives back home, her past finds a way of catching up with her. With lots of love, laughter and warmth, Lynsey unravels a story that brings you so much joy.

Although the initial premise is quite similar to a lot of romance novels, I really liked Lynsey’s take on it. She has a way with words that entrances the reader and forces them to keep reading on. Her writing is quite reminiscent of some popular American romance authors that I love and I would definitely recommend this book to fans of Debbie Macomber and Robyn Carr.

The characters in this novel are all vibrant and relatable. Lucy makes for a charismatic protagonist who’s dealt with life as she thought best. I admired her and found her to be a wonderful character who blossoms as the story goes by. Having a strong protagonist is a plus but the supporting characters within the story are the perfect icing on the cake. Lynsey’s done a good job of creating a cast of characters that enlighten this tale of romance and intrigue.

I’ve been reading a lot of books where I’ve had to analyse every page in depth, so it was nice to break out of that to enjoy an easy read that allows you to relax and unwind. Although the ending is predictable I liked knowing that this was a no fuss, solid romance that would make me smile and that’s exactly what I got. Perfect for a cold rainy day and to curl up in front of the fire type book, that romance fans will enjoy. Lynsey writes wonderfully entertaining books and I very much look forward to her next.

Overall Rating: 8/10

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A letter to my 16 year old self..

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My younger sister is turning 16 in a few days and it got me thinking about how much I’ve changed since I was 16 and so I decided to write a letter to my 16 year old self.


Dear Sonu,

I know the first thing that’ll annoy you at this age is the nickname you were given by your school friends, Rosy. It’s okay, I know right now it seems like the bane of your existence but don’t worry so much because some day down the line, someone will compliment your rosiness and make you look at it in a different way where you won’t feel constantly embarrassed about it.

Life looks pretty miserable right now what with all the impending GCSE exams hovering over you as well as school problems, friendships and crushes all just causing unnecessary stress. Word of advice, work hard, focus on your studies and you’ll do well. Some friendships will last and others won’t that doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with you, its just the way life works. You will all go in different directions but the ones that matter will still be a part of your life. And crushes, well believe you me when you get to my age you’ll laugh and say what was I thinking? But more than that you’ll learn that you’re still a teenager and so is your crush, you may feel more mature and wiser but you’re not, not really. You need time to understand the way in which this world works and right now you should just enjoy the moment and embrace it.

Going to a faith school is hard, very hard for someone like you, who’s a shy girl. I know you feel like you just blend into the crowd and sometimes even when you want to, you’re unable to detach yourself from the herd of teenagers. But there’s one thing you should know, be proud. Be proud of who you are and what you stand for. Stand up for yourself and don’t follow the crowd because you and I both know that you’re not a sheep.

At 16 you’ll feel like the world is closing in on you. Nothing seems to be going right and you feel insecure and unhappy. I can tell you this though, life is all about learning and learning is what you’ll do. The world can be a brilliant place, you just have to find your place in it and I know that you will. Right now you’re uncertain of the paths you want to take but don’t worry because I know everything will fall into place. Enjoy the moments spent with your friends and listen to your family because trust me they know best and are always right.

Don’t live life afraid, live it like a superhero. Go enjoy the little moments, go eat that ice-cream you’re craving or go watch that movie that you’ve been waiting for, for so long. You don’t need to wear make-up or go partying to fit in. You don’t need to fit in. Life is all about being different and standing out. Be who you want to be, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Don’t worry about making mistakes because one thing I do know is that these mistakes will make you a stronger, better individual.

Oh and one more thing, just remember to keep on smiling.

Love, Simran.

Life is too short..

Over the years we have all heard the phrase: life is too short, spoken many times. Usually it’s brought about by an incident that has happened, that has either affected our family or friends in a certain way. Sadly, we all say that we should just enjoy our life because it’s just too short but do we ever actually go out and try and accomplish this?

Why do we live a life that is so full of hate? Why do we live based on what society expects of us? Why do we argue, hold grudges?

These are questions, we as individuals, should ask ourselves everyday. When we know that sooner or later we won’t have enough time left, why do we waste the time that we do have on pointless things? Instead of arguing, holding grudges, hating on someone, be the bigger person and move on. Don’t stress yourself out over someone or something that has no importance in your life, what’s the point? What will you achieve from it? We should enjoy the gift of life that we have been given and live it to the fullest.

As per human nature, we tend to think too much about what society expects of us. This is a common factor amongst the Indian culture and being a British Sikh, I too have experienced it. We shouldn’t care about what others think of us, they’re not living our lives, they’re (most of the time) not related to us, so why do we give them so much importance?

You are your own person. No one can take that away from you and you shouldn’t try to let anyone either. You shouldn’t have to mould yourself into someone just because that’s what is ‘expected’ of you. Live your life on your own terms, not anyone else’s.

That’s the only way you will truly be able to enjoy life. Don’t waste your time by occupying your mind with futile things and people, spend this time wisely with those that are close to you, cherish every moment because this life we have been given is beautiful, you just have to open your eyes and see it.

Spread the peace, the love and the joy – live your life.